~hobbelf

and so....another one, of the painty variety this time....man am I glad I bought a load of painting stuff even though I have little skill at all (I can hold a brush ) it's been a rather good release for me this past week....

so....never do a dissertation....it is far more stress than it's worth....81 pages and 13,321 or something words about the chemical analysis of soil and why it went wrong for me is not the most thrilling thing I've ever had to write....and I really don't want to read it even though I'm currently trying to write a presentation on it (as if the written thing wasn't enough....a 20min presentation to go with it...why not?) but yeah......I didn't quite get the release of stress that I'd have hoped to get from handing it in last week, so evidently it's not been my only problem....maybe my counsellor can fish the rest out of me tomorrow, not seen her in about 4 weeks as I had to miss my last slot due to a 2 day course from a barrister....we shall see I guess, we shall see.....I suspect it might be my last session anyways, certainly one of my last with me leaving soon....

oh, and on that kinda round about kinda topic....my cholesterol is no longer 8.4....it was down to 6.7....and yet the doctor wanted to up me onto the highest dosage of meds possible?!?! but yeah, I politely declined on that one for now....

had my last ever lecture today....slightly scary.....I can't believe it's actually coming to an end.....I might have had a bit of a naff time while I've been at uni....but there's a lot of people I'm really gonna miss but....we're just gonna have to make a damn good go of the last weeks we all have here....and pass our exams of course....

have a 3 week teaching placement lined up back home for when I finish.....could be interesting....I really need to get my application in, but I still wonder if I'll actually be able to do the job...hopefully this placement will let me know...and not kill me...

other such stuff.....I think I'm on the up again now, I certainly hope so....been quite low for a while with little idea why and it gets annoying when that's the case....I hate more so when how I'm feeling impacts on others, so I'm sorry to all you out there that've had to put up with me (not that I think any of you read this) and thank you as well....

stuff stuff and more stuff.....I shall return to writing my presentation now....I would much rather paint though (or attempt to at any rate).....

until next time....

*hugs*

also....happy birthday Dad......miss you somewhat....